PHEEW!! After a YEAR AND A HALF of sitting on this gem, I have FINALLY dropped my official “Bonita” Music Video on my Dad’s birthday.I think he would have been proud. 2 years ago I went on a mission trip to #Honduras with our High School students. It changed my life. I met some wonderful people and even found a new family in central America: Hector Galeas & Lorena Mejia de Galeas. They told me to come back and that I’m welcome ANYTIME. So…I did. I returned 6 months later and filmed this music video in January 2020. I forewent going to The GRAMMY Awards that year so I could film this and even contracted “The vid” coming back traveling through Dallas & Chicago airports, right when the pandemic was about to hit. To say this trip was a trip of a LIFETIME was an UNDERSTATEMENT! You can see a FRACTION of the fun we had while out there….including renting an Air B&B on a remote island in the #CayosCochinos …one of the most beautiful places I’ve ever been to. You had to be there …but Jeremiah Morland (my buddy who went) and I have MEMORIES for a LIFETIME!!! Thanks, Hector & Lorena, for opening your hearts and home up to me. I debuted this song at the Urban Fest ministry concert we threw in Honduras 2 summers ago and I fulfilled my promise in returning to film the video in their beautiful country with their beautiful people. I was hoping to premiere this song in the states the last 2 summers at Brat Fest, but…well, a worldwide pandemic hit, and that got thwarted. But this song is about being able to finally see the beauty in life and other people, including one’s own lot in life, after being “Delivered”. It’s also to pay homage to my Latin roots. I dedicate this video to my Dad.
Hello, all my wonderful friends and supporters!!! I have recently joined my good friend Krista (from Krista in The Morning Rush show on 93.1 Jamz in Madison, WI) in raising money to fight blood cancer.
She is nominated as Woman of the Year and I am honored to be on her team as part of #KristasCrusaders !!!
Laying in bed trying to fall back asleep and felt compelled to share my heart: I’m not suicidal by any means. I have some friends that are which my heart mourns for, but my own heart does long to be home with Jesus. This is also scripturally accurate. Ecclesiastes 3:11 tell us that when God created us all, He placed eternity in our hearts. This is why nothing on earth will ever fulfill that VOID in our hearts (money, fame, accolades, relationships etc.) Until we have reached Eternity with God/Heaven…our hearts will always long for it and nothing this side of eternity will ever satiate that desire. This also makes sense in the fact that nothing has ever fully felt like “home” growing up. I’ve never fully settled into a dwelling. Even the residence/bedroom I’m in now, which I’ve occupied the last decade, I’ve never fully furnished or painted it or “made it my own.” To me, I’ve always just been “passing thru” until I reach my final destination. I’ve had GF’s in the past tell me they feel I’m never settled in/never unpack because I always travel with a “to-go” backpack. Truth is: I’m just a traveler on a journey passing thru this temporary world until I reach my final destination (Heaven.) There are a lot of things here that are great and wonderful, but they honestly don’t hold a candle to where I’m going. My heart missed my Dad a little this morning. If I’m being honest, this world is the only hell I’ll ever experience. To some, it’s the only Heaven they’ll ever experience and that thought always breaks my heart (). Which is why I’m passionate about spreading the gospel. Look. Everything here is temporary. That’s an absolute that can’t be disputed. That in itself proves that Absolutes are true.. Including Absolute Truth. Truth is: Everything will return to dust. Your body. Your home. The relationship you have now…spouse, kids. They will end.
I have love and respect for all people and desire for them to spend eternity with me and God. That’s my biggest passion in life. I never want them to spend eternity apart from God (TRUST ME…You do NOT want to be apart from everything that is good for all of eternity.) Aside from that…I’m not tied to anything here. My name, my status. My income. All the video equipment I’ve been blessed to acquire over the years (Glory to God!) My jobs. My residence. My career. My music. Awards. Titles. My car. When they all return to dust, I’ll be ok.
“I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.” – Philippians 4:12
Truly there’s nothing in this world that can complete me. These worldly things all mean nothing to me in the grand scheme of things. I love and cherish my family, friends, and supporters who rock with my mission more than anything else in this world. My focus is on eternity and The Kingdom. Everything else is futile. A chasing after the wind. The Lord has opened my eyes to MANY great things over the last few years. I have steady prayed for wisdom over everything else, much like King Solomon did in 1 Kings 3.
“For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.” (Ecclesiastes 1:18)
My heart grieves and longs for Home. But I still have an appreciation for being able to experience this beautiful thing called life and all the joys and blessings that come with it. Literally a one in a trillion chance that we’re here right now. Even though I mourn for this fallen sinful world…My heart is at peace knowing this will be the only hell I ever experience. But for now…I want to make sure it’s not the only Heaven YOU experience. That’s what drives me every day.
If you’ve been on the fence considering placing your Faith in Jesus as your Savior but haven’t yet, won’t you do that today so you can rest assured that you will spend eternity in Heaven with God?? Best decision you’ll ever make in life.
Romans 10:9 tells us: If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” That’s it! BUT…The key is…you have to truly believe it on your heart. Many will confess it with their mouth (most legalistic religious rituals,) but the words that come out of their lips don’t match what they believe in their hearts. TRULY I TELL YOU! Jesus Christ and The Word of God are REAL. He has revealed Himself to me time and time and time again…over and over. DAILY if not hourly! If you don’t believe me..ask Him yourself. If your heart TRULY wants to know The Truth…He WILL reveal Himself to you as well. But your Pride has to be moved aside and heart has to be fully open and ready.
My prayer today (and every day) is that someone accepts Jesus Christ and the gift of eternal life in Heaven WITH God and NOT apart from Him and all that is good!
Sitting here eating lunch (my breakfast lol) and one of the containers my food was in reminded me of my Dad and the baked mostaccioli he would always bring me. And for a minute, I missed my Dad. Then I got to thinking: We were able to mentally and emotionally prepare for his death (as he’s been in hospice care and declining cognitively for months prior.) And he had a pretty full life even after his massive stroke in 2003 (he lived to 83.) I realized I’ll see my Dad soon enough and my heart started to think: I CAN’T EVEN IMAGINE the pain and emptiness those who lose parents young, and even their own siblings and children, have to go through every day of their life. It’s an empty ache that’s there and never goes away.
But then, my heart grew even sadder when I realized …once some people pass…that really is the last time they’ll ever see their loved one again.
This is something that’s been eating at me for a while to address:
I’ve witnessed time and time again over the years, non-believer friends who blatantly deny Jesus Christ as The One True way to The Father and Heaven (John 14:6) say “Heaven gained another angel” or “so and so is looking down on us now/is at peace” or “I’ll see you again.” My mind can’t comprehend how you’ll see them again or how they’re in Heaven as an angel if: You deny the existence of God and don’t believe in God/Heaven yourself (I may never know where their deceased friend’s heart laid with God ..but I do know my friends current words, actions & fruit rejects Jesus Christ.) This hurts my heart and I can’t be quiet anymore:
The Truth is…if you don’t put your trust in Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, you won’t see them again. If they didn’t put their trust in Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior as well, you won’t see them again. In fact, worse than that…those who deny Jesus have a place prepared for those who choose to be apart from Him for eternity. God doesn’t send us there…WE CHOOSE to go there by rejecting God and all that’s good. Hell isn’t “punishment ” Hell is the absence of everything God is: Good.
This is hard for me to write. And it’s going to be even harder for some to read. But the reason it’s hard is because it is the Truth. I’ve been called all the things in the book with my delivery style: too intense, intolerant, ignorant, insensitive, crass, dogmatic. But when it comes down to it…it is still Truth no matter how it’s delivered. And the real problem isn’t my delivery…It’s the pride in our hardened hearts that don’t want to hear the Truth. I’ve been there. My whole life I had family members and such “shoving Jesus down my throat” telling me how I needed to live my life and make my music. And I HATED it more than anything else. I wanted to live my life for me. I knew what was best for my life…not them! Guess who ended up being right?? Them.
I started asking my friends who were turned off to the message of Jesus I was bringing them…”what kind of delivery would make my truth more acceptable and receptive to you?” Their answer is always the same: “that’s a good question.” As in…there is no right way for me to deliver Truth. Cuz it will always always ALWAYS cut and sting a hardened heart that doesn’t want to receive it.
Know I bring you this message in love. I WANT to see you all again. I want you all to see your loved ones again. I WANT to enjoy eternity with you and bask in the glory of God and all of the sick and pain-free glory that all of Heaven promises for all of eternity. I do not wish for any soul to perish.
I woke up to 2 Timothy 4 today – about sharing your Faith and preaching The Word of God. “For there is going to come a time when people won’t listen to the truth but will go around looking for teachers who will tell them just what they want to hear. They won’t listen to what The Bible says but will blithely follow their own misguided ideas.”
Listen, we can’t follow our own misguided ideas. Just because we think we’re “good” or someone is “good” by our earthly standards doesn’t mean we’ll “see them again” in Heaven. Romans 3:23 tells us ALL have sinned and fall short of the Glory of God (a PERFECT Judge.) That means, if we sin one time…we don’t uphold the standards of a Judge Whose grade scale and standards are. Welp…perfection. This is why we NEED Jesus Christ to enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Please don’t wait another moment. I hear friends say all the time “I’m not ready yet.” All this means is…you know The Truth, but you’re not ready to accept it and start living a more righteous life that isn’t so prideful, lustful, and greedy. You’re clinging to those worldly sins too much, much like I was. I wasn’t ready yet. But that’s a very VERY slippery slope and dangerous game of Russian roulette. Don’t wait. Turn from your sin (repent) and put your trust and faith in Jesus Christ and let’s celebrate the fact that we will truly indeed see each other all once again! And once you do that, go and spread the good word to the rest of your friends and family so they can all be sure they will join us in eternity as well!
If you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. (Romans 10:9)